Don't Scurry!

     Everybody must have been feeling of stagnant every facing a problem in this life. Not success to find the right path, so scurry is considered the most secure way. But actually, scurry is not the key to cover the problem. It just brings us to another problem.

      In every problem there is a seed to the solution. God will definitely gives the sweetest solution for every problem in this life. We have to think clearly to find it. Because without think clearly, we will find the wrong solution and it will create a new problem. We have to be careful when facing a problem, we have to think accurately. Starting on the treatment until the effects that will arise from the problem.

      We never know what kind of way provided by God for us to through. Yet, sincerity in dealing with a case coupled with the effort and tawakal will produce beautiful results. Including above all the problems that have been created by Him to color our lives with the learning a variety of wonderful experiences. when we are in a difficult choice, God also gives an opportunity for us to strengthen the heart by begging on his instructions. From this I draw the conclusion that the selection and any issues that He planned. He never leaves us alone.

      God wants His creatures always striving more instead of choosing to scurry as a way to solve the problem. Because the present problem is not to be avoided, but to deal with them beautifully. Because there is a problem as the process of forging the heart and soul to ascend to a better level. Do not scurry! Just try to open it, cause when you open the problem's door, you can enjoy it and solve it! Sometimes problem must be enjoyed so that the problem can be solved.

Curiosity Kills

          Actually, I don’t really know what my heart wants. Hufff, now, maybe, I feel the feeling that people usually called : galau. It really is not a good situation for me, and for all people, absolutely. Falling in love is such a beautiful thing, but sometimes it can hurt you so much. Lucky for people who fall in love with the right person and unlucky for people who fall in love with the wrong person. Not just in personal, but situation also affects the success of feeling. When you’re falling in love with the right person but in a wrong situation, you will not be succeded to make him/her yours. Love is complicated, seriously. No kidding. Need a long time to understand about love, because love is not something that easy to understand.

          Love has been making me in a trouble. I don’t know where’s the best way that I have to choose to make me out of this fucking trouble. Falling in love with the wrong person in the wrong situation is like trap in a wilderness area alone without a road signpost. You will never know where’s the way to make you get out from the wilderness area. Confusion, only this feeling you’ve got. And the taste is really not good, right?

          That’s why I’m lazy to have an affair with ‘love’ thingy. I want my life back, when my mind just have contents about friends, lifestyle, education, and my dreams. Ugh, but I can’t control it. This feeling come to my life suddenly, entrance to my good life, and destroy my life that already in a good condition. HIM! Now, He takes the first rate in my mind, even the only thing in my mind right now, maybe. I know the situation is really not allow to make him mine, I’m sure I’m aware of it. But still, I can’t throw him away from my mind.

          He’s so perfect. Religious, handsome, smart, critical, having a strong leadership, sociable, and respectful. But He’s not single. HE’S NOT SINGLE! You know, He’s so nice to me, really care of me, give me some advices when I’m wrong, and always help me when I need something. He is two years older than me and the youngest children in his family. I’m seriously wondering, WHY HE DID ALL OF THAT TO ME? AND ALL OF THAT HAVE SUCCEEDED MAKE ME SET MY HOPES TOO HIGH FROM HIM. WHY???? I’m curious. Is He a coquettish person, scumbag man, or does He just assume me as his sister? He’s the youngest children in his family from two children, He doesn’t have a lil sister. It’s not impossible, He just wants to have a lil sister in his life that He can’t get from his family, so when He’s meeting me, when we’re talking, when we’re interacting, maybe He feels like He’s having a lil sister. SERIOUSLY I’M CURIOUS!!!!!

          Well, love is never wrong. If love could be wrong, it means God could be wrong, and I think God would never be wrong. When you’re falling in love with someone, you will just have a good thing from him though there are some people who told you he/she is not ‘a good person’. And you’ll never can control with whom you will fall in love, it happens suddenly, at the unplanned time, and at the place you never thought. Your mind tells you to stop it, but your heart won’t. I don’t know what’s the God’s plan for my lovelife, but I believe God brings him into my life with a reason. Nothing in this world happens without a reason, even God has a reason why there’s an ant in this world, a really small animal that sometimes invisible and forgotten. I believe God has an amazing reason for me why this is happened to me when I’m falling in love for the first time in my life at my 19th age.

Let's Try to Learn Something That You Dislike!

Doing something that is not our habit is seriously not easy. I’m usually watching tv program which is entertaining, not a serious program. Reading a lifestyle magazine, not about politics or economic, or culture. I always need an extra time to read one rubric in a newspaper or serious magazine.

Now, I'm trying to be better in understanding politics. By the way, I’m the person who anti-politics so damn much. I hate that field so much much much, cause in my eyes politics is just the gathering place for hypocrites. But, lately my view changed. Hahaha ya once more, it’s not easy for me to understand every rubric that I read. I choose tempo magazine to make me understand about politics, cause tempo is devoted to political. Not just the magazine, but sometimes I read the tempo's newspaper too.

Politics is the first thing that I focus on right now, but it doesn’t mean that I don't learn another fields. I keep reading about economic and culture but with different focus. I don't know where this thing comes from, but I think people who talk about politics seem so smart. Too many strange words I found when I read a news or article about politics. It also makes me almost dizzy and need a quiet place when I want to read about politics.

For now, I still can't share something about politics yet. My comprehension is still limited, very very limited. There's no courage yet from myself to write about politics here, but I promise I will write about politics when I feel already understand it as soon as possible.

Guys, let's try to learn something that you dislike from now on! Don't ever shut down yourself from 'the thing' that you don't like, it will prejudice yourself. Try to open yourself with everything but don't forget to filter it!

Parent's Words Are Often TRUE!

College’s life is so different with high school’s life moreover elementary school’s life. I have no much free time in a day. When I have free time, I often decided to sleep. My life is so random here, still can’t manage my life yet. Often skip a morning class cause I’m usually staying up late. Well, everyone I want to share something about my foolishness.

College's life make my eyes open that I don't have much insight, often feels dumb when I’m in a class. When everybody could answer a question from lecturer and I’m not. Chit chat with my friends just about some basic things, I can’t chit chat about political, economic, even culture. When I’m working on a group assignment, I rarely give a contribution cause I dont know what I have to say in the middle of smart people. I don't want to show my stupidity.

Just remembered my dad’s words which told me to not watch a drama everytime I’m watching tv is RIGHT. He told me to try to read a newspaper cause it’s so useful to add a knowledge in my mind. Hahaheu yaa all of my dad’s words are just get in to the right ear, then go out through the left ear. I’m the person who rarely listening to my daddy’s words. I’m just watching serial drama everyday and never read a newspaper, also not caring about surroundings. I just always care about me. HA ya I’m so selfish. I realized it. There's just an easy thing in my mind.

BUT NOW I WILL CHANGE IT ALL. I’m going to make myself to be a smart person. Trying to read a newspaper everyday although I’m not reading all of the rubrics. Not only watching serial drama every night, but also a news program. Practicing myself to not just read a book if tomorrow there’s test, but everyday. Think that tomorrow there’s always a test, maybe it’ll make me more concentrate when I read my college books. The important thing is, starting to care about surroundings and other people. What they’re thinking, what they’re feeling, and trying to not impose what I want.

I wish I could continue with what I’m doing now, doesn’t feel bored to read a newspaper or magazine or whatever except about lifestyle. I really want to be a critical person in everything’s with an intellect style. I want to make everyone (especially my daddy) surprise with my alteration, but I know it will need a long time. Study everyday, learn about everything everyday, and also care with surroundings everytime. As time goes by, slowly but surely, I believe my mind will be fulfilled with various knowledges.

HELLLLLOOOOO

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYY huhuhu I'm sorry to not write anything in this blog for a long time. Feeling so confused about what I have to write, confused what I have to tell to you. Actually, too many tragedies happened after my latest post. Hahaha yaa Alhamdulillah I'm in the good conditions right now after in a bad condition in long months.

Starting from now on, I promise to my self to always update my blog once in two weeks. So, how are you guys??? hahaha I hope everything is okay :)

It's time to RISE!

Yeah... until now I really can't accept the fact. I have to forget about my big dream to go to college in foreign country. My best friends always give me spirit, they told me that to go to college in foreign country is not everything. 
           

I always tell myself 'I have to accept it I have to accept it'. Someday one of my bestfriend, her name is Irene and she told me she wanted hospitality for college. She told me everything about hospitality, most of everyday she tells me about word of hospitality. According to her story, I was interested to plunge into the world of hospitality.
           

I told my mom that I want to plunge into the world of hospitality in Indonesia. She gave me a big support. Start from there, I can accept the fact that I have to go to college in my country, Indonesia. I begin to rise again, but there is a thing which makes me disappointed, some of my friends thinking that I copy Irene. I want to plunge into the world of hospitality because I copy Irene.
           

I was down, my spirits began to disappear again. I told Irene about it, but she gave me really good advice. Because of her advice, the spirits were coming back to my body. I don't care what they said, the important thing is my future.
           

Although I'm sure to plunge into the world of hospitality, I joined the fingerprint test. The result of the test was I'm not suitable to be a manager of hospitality. OOOOOOOOOORRRGH!!!! I'm confused, what should I do?? But the result of the test told me that I'm suitable to be a journalist, I'm suitable to plunge into the world of journalism. I like the world of journalism, yaaa eventhough just like. But this turns out to be my career.

Okay okaay, now I'm sure I want to plunge into the world of journalism, I wanna be a presenter or magazine editor. Honestly, I still want to be a brand manager of popular product. I don't know why, even though the result of the fingerprint test told me that don't be a manager but I still want. That's my dream.

It's okay... I will use the technique of stepping stone. I will plunge into the world of journalism first, after that I want to be a fashion journalist. If I reliable in fashion journalist, not impossible I could be appointed as a brand manager of popular products like louisvuitton or miumiu or channel. YEAHAHAHAHAA I'M SURE I'M SURE I CAN DO IT!!!!! God, please help me to get what I want.

Disappointment..

I have a very big dream, I know I really really know my dream is not easy to be seized. I really want to go to college in foreign country. At first, I'm interested to go to college in Germany. I like to go to college in Germany because in my high school I learn German language, I plan to study in the department of law. But I've realized that law in there is different with my country, Indonesia. 


I've already told my mom about what I want, but I haven't told her what is my big dream. I just told her I want to go to college in there. My mom give me a big support and she told me she can sponsore me to go there, she promised me that she won't change her words. I know, that is not a good time. I also feel my mother was not convinced by her words at that time, seems she didn't want to disappoint me. I know my fams financial is at the bottom of the wheel at that time and also until now hhh :'(

I keep thinking positive that I will keep going there. But suddenly I change my mind to go to France, I'm interested to study fashion man. Really wanna get job in fashion industry, I wanna be a brand manager of popular product like louis vuitton or miu miu or channel. I told her I've changed my mind, and she still told me ok, because for her the important thing is I'm happy with my life.

A few weeks after that, my mom told me that she can't sponsore me to go to France. Project which she thought will work was not successful, that's why she can't give sponsor to me. OHMYGODDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED...... I couldn't manage my emotions at that time. Whom I should be angry with? My mom? God? Situation? or what? I'm annoyed, I cried. I cried all night because it.