It's time to RISE!

Yeah... until now I really can't accept the fact. I have to forget about my big dream to go to college in foreign country. My best friends always give me spirit, they told me that to go to college in foreign country is not everything. 
           

I always tell myself 'I have to accept it I have to accept it'. Someday one of my bestfriend, her name is Irene and she told me she wanted hospitality for college. She told me everything about hospitality, most of everyday she tells me about word of hospitality. According to her story, I was interested to plunge into the world of hospitality.
           

I told my mom that I want to plunge into the world of hospitality in Indonesia. She gave me a big support. Start from there, I can accept the fact that I have to go to college in my country, Indonesia. I begin to rise again, but there is a thing which makes me disappointed, some of my friends thinking that I copy Irene. I want to plunge into the world of hospitality because I copy Irene.
           

I was down, my spirits began to disappear again. I told Irene about it, but she gave me really good advice. Because of her advice, the spirits were coming back to my body. I don't care what they said, the important thing is my future.
           

Although I'm sure to plunge into the world of hospitality, I joined the fingerprint test. The result of the test was I'm not suitable to be a manager of hospitality. OOOOOOOOOORRRGH!!!! I'm confused, what should I do?? But the result of the test told me that I'm suitable to be a journalist, I'm suitable to plunge into the world of journalism. I like the world of journalism, yaaa eventhough just like. But this turns out to be my career.

Okay okaay, now I'm sure I want to plunge into the world of journalism, I wanna be a presenter or magazine editor. Honestly, I still want to be a brand manager of popular product. I don't know why, even though the result of the fingerprint test told me that don't be a manager but I still want. That's my dream.

It's okay... I will use the technique of stepping stone. I will plunge into the world of journalism first, after that I want to be a fashion journalist. If I reliable in fashion journalist, not impossible I could be appointed as a brand manager of popular products like louisvuitton or miumiu or channel. YEAHAHAHAHAA I'M SURE I'M SURE I CAN DO IT!!!!! God, please help me to get what I want.

Disappointment..

I have a very big dream, I know I really really know my dream is not easy to be seized. I really want to go to college in foreign country. At first, I'm interested to go to college in Germany. I like to go to college in Germany because in my high school I learn German language, I plan to study in the department of law. But I've realized that law in there is different with my country, Indonesia. 


I've already told my mom about what I want, but I haven't told her what is my big dream. I just told her I want to go to college in there. My mom give me a big support and she told me she can sponsore me to go there, she promised me that she won't change her words. I know, that is not a good time. I also feel my mother was not convinced by her words at that time, seems she didn't want to disappoint me. I know my fams financial is at the bottom of the wheel at that time and also until now hhh :'(

I keep thinking positive that I will keep going there. But suddenly I change my mind to go to France, I'm interested to study fashion man. Really wanna get job in fashion industry, I wanna be a brand manager of popular product like louis vuitton or miu miu or channel. I told her I've changed my mind, and she still told me ok, because for her the important thing is I'm happy with my life.

A few weeks after that, my mom told me that she can't sponsore me to go to France. Project which she thought will work was not successful, that's why she can't give sponsor to me. OHMYGODDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED...... I couldn't manage my emotions at that time. Whom I should be angry with? My mom? God? Situation? or what? I'm annoyed, I cried. I cried all night because it.